I Really Had To Go...

I am not one of those people who always needs to go to the bathroom when they are in the car. So when I say I HAVE TO GO. I gotta go.

I made this disclosure to my spouse after being in the car for an hour and having one very large soda. He said I'm running late (to his night job) lets go. Ok, so my request for relief was brutally rebuffed.

Then I started to feel extreme pain and I thought I was going to ram the car into another car because my kidneys as well as my bladder felt as they had reached critical mass.  AND THEN I THOUGHT why couldnt he had just driven so I could have jumped out to a bathroom, or peed in a cup (yes I know ewww, but I was in EXTREME PAIN!)  I was pissed!

This is like a perfect example of why this marriage is a mess and why he is a mess and why I am a mess for choosing to stay in it. I could go on and on but I just dont have the energy right now, I am spent.  That kind of sums up how I feel about my marriage alot of the time...spent with nothing left to give.

more later...