First Day of Letting It All Hang Out

So welcome to my life and the first time I put it all out there for people to read.  I figure this experience may give me some insight on MY life as a 35 yr old woman (yes I wrote my age...its a number only!), who struggles with self identity as my life changes from what I expected  it to be, what it was, what it has become and what I want it to evolve to be. (See my past, present, and future there!)

Anyhoo, in a nutshell, I have been on a roller coaster for-like-ever and I don't feel like I was manning the controls.  I would like to get off now please and move over to the damn music express ride that I do like (only ride I would get on at a carnival) and do it my way!

I have always been introspective, is that a word? In fact as a kid when I got upset, I sat in the bathroom and talked to myself as if someone was giving me therapy, so I could clear my head. Little did I know how much talking to therapists I would be doing as I got older and how most of that went over my head.

So now I am off to perform my motherly and wifely duty of cooking for my family. Yes, I am a mom of a 5 yr old boy and a 3 yr old girl and married for-like-ever to my husband. Ok, exageration...its been almost 8 yrs, but we met in high school. So it feels like we've been married the whole time! More on them...and HIM later. (Can you sense I gots lots to say about the man?) But I digress...

I'm outtie. Stay Tuned (that's kinda how I am livin these days.)